I got nothing....

[sinanju]

For almost a week now I've been staring at my computer screen feeling brain dead. I want to write something. I have several things in mind. Possible posts to a game, character ideas for several games both actual and potential, even a crossover fiction idea (Big Love crossed with True Lies!), other things.

But I've got nothing. I stare at the blank screen and I stare and I stare. There's this big, echoing empty space where I usually have lots of ideas--no, that's not right. I have the ideas. I just can't seem to turn them into words. I look at the screen and nothing comes to mind. I just feel tired.

It's frustrating. It's also quite rare, so I guess I shouldn't complain too much. People I know online who write fics or post to games I'm in sometimes talk about their muses deserting them. I always find that phrasing a bit...precious. When people speak of having muses talking to them (or not talking to them), or taking up residence in their imaginations, it strikes me as just a little silly.

It also (to use the terminology I learned from snippy) surrenders their agency. Yes, I know that they're engaging in flights of fancy, but still--they're putting the responsibility for their successes and failures in the hands of someone else, even if that someone else is imaginary. I've never liked that.

When I write, when the words are flowing fast and thick, that's me, baby. When the words dry up, as now, that's also me. No muses need apply.

This too shall pass, of course. Soon (I hope), I'll sit down and start writing again.

But probably not tonight.

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*hugs* Writer's block/writelessness/whatever you want to call it sucks.